Starting Over

Well the past 2 days I've been binging on whatever random shit is in my house and at my friend's.. and I haven't really been able to count however many calories so I've decided I'm starting my diet over. And I'm terrified cause it's my sister's birthday today so I'm gonna be forced to eat cake or something and I really don't want to but like ugh >_< I'm scared. :c I don't even know what we're doing for dinner or anything, but it'll probably be shitloads of calories anyways and I'm not gonna be able to handle that, I don't know why I can't just disappear. I'm too fat to be able to exist. I feel terrible about how much I've eaten. I shouldn't have done that. I'm just so fat it's disgusting and ridiculous. I'm gonna go take another nap now, I've been up since  like 9.30 to go to back to school orientation with my friend. And I'm exhausted. And I got my hair dyed&cut yesterday, maybe I'll post a picture later. I dunno, I'm just not in the mood to do anything right now, I just wanna go throw up and cut.

Shannon

Welcome.

Hey, I'm Shannon. Check out my About Me page. This is a blog basically for me to document my struggles with everything, you don't like it? Don't read it. I just need somewhere to vent. No promises that this will be updated that often, but it probably will be a lot cause I'm not a generally happy person. Oh, and I have no life/nothing better to do than run a blog&play hockey. Follow my other blog on Tumblr cause I tend to update that a lot too. Anyways. Depression, bpd, anxiety, self harm, and an EDNOS run my life. And I want to die 3/4 of the time. Um, yeah. I'm too young to deal with this shit but I have been since I was about 12 and a half. Well, I guess that's it. You can ignore this blog if you'd like, I'm just using it to vent once again. Well that's it. xoxo

Shannon